Thursday, 31 July 2008

New York City BABY!!

It's finally happening, another thing to cross off "My List"


I've always been fascinated by the world, in all it's wonder and have wanted nothing more than to go and explore it.

I'm off to New York City! The crossroads of the world. The lights of Broadway. The buzz of the city. Am i excited? Fuck yeah! More than you can ever know or imagine.

Just the thrill of knowing i'm going to experience so many new and amazing things while i do this makes all of the struggles that go with it seem so worthwhile.

I've got a lot of new decisions and turns to make when i return from this trip and maybe, just maybe, this might be the one and only trip i ever get to take. So i've got to grab it with both hands and jump right in. Screw everyone. Screw the doctors, screw their decisions and their reasoning. For once i couldn't really care less. After all, this is my life and i don't really want to be here to just survive; i want to live!

I guess, when it balls down to it...

There is no holiday from cancer, however if it's going to come along with me, the least i can do is show it a good time. And boy, will i show it a good time. It may just die from all the excitement.

Sunday, 27 July 2008

It's Not All About Cancer....

It's a lovely sunny day today.

One of those days where you can just lazy around and enjoy the atmosphere of a proper british summer day.

People happy, people laughing, people spending time together and most importantly people sharing memories.

It's a lovely sunny day today - and i think i'll leave it at that as i don't really have the time to waste a minute and just for today i don't really have to think about my cancer....

Tuesday, 15 July 2008

Another year in the life....

Around this time last year i was told they were running out of options for me, I spent a lot of time thinking about how to tell people. How do you break that kind of news? How do you put that fear and sadness into words?

Well, it's a year on and I'm still here.

Let's face it, I didn't expect to still be around. My doctors certainly didn't expect me to be. My friends and family were scared that I wouldn't still be here. But here I am. So how do I explain that?

I have good doctors, the best in the business. And they're willing to try their damned hardest for me.

I have the thoughts and prayers from all of you. I am truly blessed. Or to put it another way, I am truly well-armed when it comes to this fight with cancer.

But how have I managed to beat the odds? Why didn't I just die when my first doctors predicted I would?

I don't really have an answer for that. I'm stubborn, and I'm sure that's part of it. I'm pretty strong, and I'm sure that's part of it, too.

And I still have more living to do. More blogs to write, more places to see, more laughs to be had...that keeps me going too.

But when I stop and think about it, I realize it's just not my time yet. I still have too much to do.

Here's to another year.